her eyes screamed the saddest apology the world has ever heard
oh the scars on her wrist? dont worry, she says their just a reminder of how many times you broke her
Sometimes i just feel like
just to see who would follow
just to see
who really cares
0r if anyone cares at all.....
[I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show, and I thought that bein strong meant never
losing your self control. but tonight im just enough to let go of my pain, to hell with my pride. let it fall like rain from
my eyes, tonight I wanna cry...]
Force a smile, blink away the tears
Im ((supposed to)) be strong
((supposed to)) have no fears
im finding it hard not to frown
im such a [ s t r o N g ] person
...why am i breaking down…
SHe's the kind of girl who has the biggest smile on her face even when shes balling her eyes out
Broken Hearts to mend
Lying cheating stealing
Pain thats never healing
Scars from sad nights
Black eyes from fist fights
Never ending stress
Trying for the best
Too many tears for someone to save me
Being a teenager is way too crazy
THey say that the teenage years are the best of your life.. but I disagree.. I just want to be a kid
I'm going to smile..
and make u think im happy..
im going to laugh..
so u dont see me cry..
even if it kills me..
im going to smile.
I don't know what to do anymore,
nothing feels the same,
I never see a smile in the mirror,
only see pain,
pain beneath my soul,
so deep inside of me
there is no escaping it,
no coming back to a normal
state of mind,
there's nothing I can do anymore.
im mad at myself for crying
i dont even remember the reason
but the tears keep flowing
they just wont stop
i'm supposed to be strong
but everythings so wrong
Oh how I wish I could see tears seep through your eyes,
but even that wouldn't be enough to
cover up the lies you kept from me.
This is where I say I've had enough
and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
walking open wound,
a trophy display of bruises
and I don't believe that I'm getting any better.
It's what ppl do without thinking
that cause the quick tears..
Eventually the tears will
..But the hurt will stay in the heart forever..
It's getting colder now
And the darkness consumes me
Depression is slowly creeping up
one day you'll actually care about me
Smile. It's easier than explaining why you're sad
*..ive learned that stuff happens, people change, and it doesnt mean you forget the past or try
to cover it up. it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories, letting go doesnt mean giving up, its just accepting
the fact that some things werent meant to be..*
I want to crawl into my dream world and stay there, so that the
pain yesterday brought won’t carry on to tomorrow.
Sometimes I find myself faking a smile just to get through the day.
I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get through anything, but inside I'm fragile.
I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering
I thought somebody would notice, I thought somebody would say something…
I could pretend that I’m not dying inside, but just so you know... I am.
The memory dies as the sun leaves the skies and I'm alone again.
I wish it was raining, cause I hate every beautiful day
Even if it’s a lie, say it’ll be alright, and I will believe...
As we grow older, it gets harder to believe. It’s not that we don’t want to but too
much has happened and we can’t.
Don’t fall into the trap of pretending everything is okay when you know it’s not.
There comes a point in your life when you realize that nothing will ever be the same, and you realize
that from now on time will be divided into two parts- before this and after this.
Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it
is to tell them you're hurt.
I’d like to think I’ll be happy again, but I really need to stop and cry right now.
Sometimes, I wish I could scream at you, and just to show you what you do to me.
You know, I don’t think I’ll ever be happy. Wherever I am, I’ll wish I’m
somewhere else. Whatever I have, I’ll want something different.
I try to laugh about it, cover it all up with lies. I try to laugh about it, hiding the tears in
Smile and make you think I’m happy
I talk and make you think I love me
I laugh, so
you don’t see me cry
I look at you and hide the pain inside
I feel myself dying but you see me survive
I didn’t wanna be that girl that cries herself to sleep…
Smile and act like nothing’s wrong
It’s called putting s*it aside and being strong
I’m not always happy but I can fake it
Cant stand all this drama but I can take it
I play it off like I got nothing to lie about, nothing to sigh about
But in my heart I know
I’ve got something to cry about
Everyone keeps asking me if I’m okay
What am I suppose to tell them?
not okay…and then what?
So I just smile and say I’m fine
Even though I’m really dying on the inside
Everyone sees who I appear to be
But only a few know the real me
You only see what I choose
There’s so many things behind my smile
You just don’t know…
What’s the point of smiling when you have no one to smile for?
*I hate when people ask me if I’m okay
Because it just reminds me that I’m not…*
I thought that I was all right, I was moving on strong
But then I realized I was losing myself
My thoughts were all wrong
I can’t show my real feelings on the outside
But they’re tearing me up inside
really sucks feeling this way
No one can help me…not even my friends
I just need my life back together again
I wanna run from all my pain
And say goodbye to yesterday
You think you know my feelings
My struggles, my fears
But it’s just like a diary
You have no idea…
The hardest battle you're ever gunna fight
...is the battle to just be you...
*Got a smile on my face
*A twinkle in my eye
*Only the true know
*When i wanna break
down and cry*
*It hurts 2 feel that no one is there 4 you
and that nobdoy cares
wondering what your purpose
or why your even there*
~I JuSt WaNt a DaY To Go By..
WhEn I'm NoT *PrEtEnDiNg* To bE HaPpY~
No one knows the real me
No one knows what I'm thinking
No one understands me
No one know
how I really feel
No one knows what I'm like under this mask
No one cares that they hurt me...
Nobody knows the pain I feel
Sometimes it hard to deal
I’m so hurt inside but it
doesn’t show on the outside
My heart is weeping as the pain is creeping down within my soul
My heart will never
be whole because of this endeavor
It’s broken forever, beyond repair
With only tears to spare
And never fade away?
When my last teardrop falls
I will stand tall and keep all our memories
And all of what
use to be…
My dreams tell me secrets
My mind tells me lies
My heart screams for help
My eyes only
You can’t see I’m hurting
You’re too blind to notice my pain
like everyone’s sitting in sunshine
While I’m drowning in the rain
I’m so afraid to care about someone
I know it seems like I’m this strong girl who
can get through everything
But inside, I’m very fragile…
I’ve had so many things thrown at me and
each one has only made a crack
What I’m afraid of…is shattering
I’m gonna let me silence speak for itself
And I hope that you hear it…
-*-This isnt a perfect world...people get hurt...
you smile when you feel like crying...
act like your okay when your falling apart...
but you gotta let go and move on...
((Cuz Theres Nothing Else You Can
-Theres been a few times where i wanted 2 die...
But you can't give up, even if all you do
If they see they got 2 you, then they are gunna think they got you beat.
Swallow your tears, stand up on your
own 2 feet,
& show them that you aren't giving up.
-No MaTtEr WhaT-
... you're missing the point. Things fall apart.
Not everything can be put back together,
matter how much you want it.
Shes cried herself to sleep so many times, that even the pillow has to be hung out to dry
They think she has everything
They think she has the perfect life, with the perfect family
and a perfect guy
But what they dont know is that she cries herself to sleep
I guess theres more to it than meets
Laying in bed as thoughts run through my head
How would you feel? What would you say if you found me dead the next morning?
Pieces of my past cover my wrists
Tears are falling
The blood drips down
I'm screaming inside
But I dont make a sound
Not to worry, my life has been one big *d i s s a p o i n t m e n t* anyways
She looks down at her damaged arm
All the harm she's done
Every regret she lives with
She'd do anything to go back to that day
When she held that razor to her arm
Twist the story around & put it down
She'd do anything to get rid of her awful scars
Her painful memories
She'd give anything to forget the pain that put them there
She sits and cries
Painful tears fill her eyes
Silent screams & cries of pain
Arms full of cuts & scars of shame
Alone in this world with a blade as a friend
To stop all her pain, & put it all to an end
She lies in her regret, spills of blood start to drop
This is her way to make all if this stop
If one day you wake up & find that I'm not there
-- I promise you can find your name carved into my wrists
Cutting all my pain away
My heart still aches in sadness & secret tears still flow
Everyone thinks I have everything, the dont ever see the true me, & I dont think I'll ever show
I feel like dying everyday
And people have hurt her so bad
The only person she can trust now is herself
I used to be [ n . o . r . m . a . l ]
Young and [ h . a . p . p . y ]
Now all I have is the *b r o k e n* image
Of the girl I used to be
How do you know I'm hurting if you cannot see my pain?
To wear it on my body tells words I cant explain
It hurts to know that no one is there for you and nobody really cares
Wondering what your purpose is, or why you're even there
She finally let go of her fake smile
& the tears slowly rolled down her face
As she whispered to h e r s e l f
I dont want to be me
I wish I was a white crayon, that way no one would ever use me
I'm alone in a room that is dark
Fighting the urge to leave another mark
My tears are flowing my thoughts collide
& the end result I'll have to hide
I'm battered & bruised & all alone
Unable to fight this on my own
Friends used to help me through this day
But they saw my pain & ran away
I'm growing weaker as the days pass
Afraid today might be my last
I know the next move is up to me
Asking for help is the only key
I know what it's like for memories to make you wince
& love letters read like obituaries
& photo albums are the books of the dead
I need no reminders
No more reminders
I'll forget the past and lay it to rest
&& as she stepped on the scale
she looks up at herself in the mirror
with tears running
down her cheeks.
"will i ever change?" she asked herself;
"will i ever be good enough for him?"
she steps off the scale && opens the drawer
&& slowly bleeds her pain away
When she cries, the makeup runs from her eyes and spills the truth about how she feels inside.
force a smile blink away the tears
The people you need in your life, are the ones who prove that they need you in theirs.
sometimes the pain is too strong to bare
and life gets so hard you just dont care.
so alone you and just sit & cry
every second you wish you would die
then you start thinkin... who would care
1 day they woke up & u weren't there
The scars will last forever but they are nothing compared to the pain that put them there
Everything is ok, in a very messed up kind of way
Nothing can make her beautiful, because real beauty is loving yourself and thats something she cant
I just say O I'm fine, and walk away, but I'm waiting for the person that grabs me by the arm and says
no your not.
The closest thing to perfect is the farthest thing from me
I'm tired of trying
SIck of crying
I know I'm smiling
But inside I'm dying
Cross my heart and hope to die
Slash my wrists
& say goodbye
If you ever come to feel my pain
Or drowned for a day in my lonley rains
You would know what it's like
To suffer my Hell
She's cutting her wrist, she thinks it helps.
But it's driving him away & she's hurting herself
Friends try to help, but it does no good
New slits everyday, old ones grow
As her friends fade away
She keeps on hurting herself
More and more each day.
He finally says "I love you"
But it's more of a goodbye, I'm going away
I'm just hoping for the best, and expecting the worst
& when your alone, all you do is think